Friday, May 26, 2006
Ah... Hunter Soul? Kinda true.
It is a beautiful Friday morning. The bright shining sun coupled with a strong breeze makes it a great day for swimming and suntanning. As usual, I sat at the jacuzzi, relaxing and just letting the millions of bubbles carry my troubles away. OOoooh... If only I was at an island resort like the Maldives. Umm... No problem. I'll just add Maldives to my mental list of places to go to in the near future. Anyone interested to go Maldives with me? =D
Anyway, seems like the spoilt bratty me is finally going to get what she wants. A holiday out of Singapore! Or rather, holidayS!!! Haha... Not going anywhere too far, but it beats being stuck here. Will be taking a total of 2 to 3 trips during the month of June. Sweeeeeeet! The Humps is going on a holiday! Hurrah Hurrah!!! (Pardon the tons of exclamation marks. But I'm really ecstatic ok?!)
Oh yeah! Watching The DaVinci Code tomorrow with my aunt. Gonna have Japanese food too. Been craving for sushi these past week. Pure bliss... Can't wait!
Things are certainly looking better for me! =D =D =D =D =D
Something funny that I read from the June 2006 issue of Reader's Digest - Life's Like That :-
When I was at the hospital being prepared for surgery, the floor nurse asked, "Which eye is to be operated on?"
Sign posted in a Manila church:
I had barely 4 hours of sleep last night. Couldn't sleep at all. Was tossing and turning in bed till 4 plus in the freakin' morning! Probably cos' I took a 3 hour nap in the evening, followed by a jog. Haha.. I needa catch up on my snooze now. Nights!
Tuesday, May 23, 2006And so the Mom is back. Went to the airport in my uncle's car to fetch her. But damn, my uncle was half an hour late. Anyway, we reached the airport just in time, cos' the plane had already landed. 15 mins later, the pieces of luggage was unloaded onto the conveyor belt. But Mom took another half an hour to get everything together before making her way out. Boy! I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw the tons of baggage she bought. Seems like she bought the whole of China.
Anyway, when she came out from the gate, I jumped on her, shouted "MOMMY!" and gave her a big bear hug. Haha.. Everyone laughed. Then I helped Mommy push her trolley and carried the luggage to my uncle's waiting vehicle. By the time we reached home, it was already 2-freakin-am. Then my sis and I waited for Mommy to unpack her luggage before we finally went to sleep at 3.30am. Ah... Mommy bought us clothes and lots of food.
Like I said, so the Mom is back and I am not away. That got on my nerves. So much so I lost my temper last night. Think I might have gotten up from the wrong side of the bed. I kinda grumbled and sulked and banged doors. All because of my delayed overseas trip and all thanks to people who cannot keep promises. I've been looking forward to the trip for a long long time just to have my hopes crashed. I hate it! I need to take a breather. I really need to get out of Singapore for a while or I might be tempted to call the Institute of Mental Health and get myself a place in there instead.
P.S: The next person to ask me why I'm still not overseas yet is gonna have my fist connected to his/her jaws. Especially the people who didn't keep their promises, you get twice the shit from me.
Saturday, May 20, 2006Ok! It was a bad bad day today. Sucks to the core! Why?! Because some slacker parent spoilt my day. I had an hour lecture from the father on how to teach. What is wrong with parents nowadays?!
Honestly speaking, I was staring into space half the time during the lecture because the father kept on reiterating his points, resulting in a monologue that's going round in circle. Needless to say, the conversation went nowhere.
So by the end of the whole thing, the father was trying to say that his son is:-
Sure sure, push all the blame on me, mister! Now let me tell you a few truths about your son.
I always tell my kids that I can only give you 50% help. The other 50% has to come from you, yourself. Intrinsic motivation, extrinsic motivation. Like, what the fuck? I need to change my tutoring methods? Again? I've tried to be patient with him, coaxing him, encouraging him, blah blah blah. It doesn't work. Fine! So I tried to be strict and firm with him and he goes crying to daddy and mommy. Fine!
Mister, obviously this fucked up grades your son attained has got a lot to do with his fucked up attitude and your fucked up parenting skills. Why are you so quick to jump to your son's defence?! Why do you fail to recognise/deny your son's low capability. I don't remember giving my tutors so much problems when I was young. There were just a few handful times when I rebelled and resisted. And they always ended with my Mom giving me a tongue lashing or a good spanking. Spare the rod and spoil the child, Mister! What I gather from his home environment is one where the parents always give in to their child's every whim and rushing to defend his every actions. Pray, tell me, how do you expect a child like this to pull up his socks and understand the importance of academic studies?
Not to mention, you failed to acknowledge my efforts in tutoring your son, which resulted in a significant improvement in his English grades. How demoralising is that?! Very. I am human too, I need to be acknowledged and credited. All you did, Mister, was to point out all the faults and push them to me and expect me to work out a miracle all on my own. Mind you, if I hadn't been strict/firm with him, pushing him to practice more, encouraging him and talking to him, doing everything and anything to get him interested and at ease, he wouldn't have improved on his own.
Bottom line is, in order for your son to improve, I need your full cooperation and not for you to work against me and fuck things up for me and then pin all the faults on me. Don't expect me to lavish your son with tons of pacifying and gifts. He wants praises, he wants gifts, he has to work for them. Work really hard.
Oh! By the way, I'm still charging you for that one hour of bullshit. *smiles*
1 more day till Mommy comes home!
Tuesday, May 16, 2006So this is the 6th day of being the head of the household and mother to an 18 year old baby. It's starting to grow on me. I am actually enjoying this sort of freedom! Haha.. I made dinner last night - meatballs with porridge. The two of us cleared the whole pot! We are pigs. I made dinner again, which consisted of 2 dishes and rice, this evening. Again, we polished off everything. Pigs are we. I spent about an hour from thawing the chicken to preparing the other ingredients to cooking them all on my own. I have improved! Muahahhaaha!!!
Dinner! Are you hungry yet?
Stewed chicken with baby carrots
Scrambled eggs with fishballs, mushrooms and tomatoes
My rice turned out more like dry porridge. Haha... I think I added too much water. Shall not make the same mistake tomorrow. I'm racking my brains over what to cook for dinner tomorrow. I've got eggs, prawns, dumplings, tofu, fish, ham, sausages, carrots, tomatoes, cucumbers and some canned food. Probably make soup and something else. Sheesh! There's still laundry to be done and floor to be swept tomorrow. Woe be me...
Damn the mozzies. I've got so many mosquito bites on me and they're itching the hell out of me. The worst part is these mosquito bites no longer disappear after a few days like they used to. Instead, after the swells go down, the redness still lingers and then it fades into a dull brown mark. *frowns*
Sigh... I cannot wait to go for my own holiday, even if it means I'm going alone.
5 more days till Mommy is home!
Sunday, May 14, 2006Been a long time since I last updated. Busy, tired and lazy. So here's a brief summary of what's been going on in my life for the past few days.
Thursday - Woke up at 5a.m. Helped Mommy carry her luggage downstairs. Parents left for the airport at 5.30am in my uncle's car with Grandpa and aunt. Went back home and stayed awake till 7am. Fell asleep and woke up again at 9.30am. Went out at 10a.m to attend to some business. After which I was supposed to go to Yvonne's house to play with her niece but something cropped up at her side the last minute. So I went to the bookstore, got some good books and went home. Spent the whole afternoon reading. Dinner was instant noodles cos I was too lazy to whip up anything else. But my sis bought some roast chicken thigh home for my supper. Monkey called. It was a nice surprise. =)
Friday - Vesak Day. Was supposed to do laundry in the morning but there was no Sun until much later. Bah! Was also supposed to go Kbox with my Cousin. Yet again, something cropped up the last minute over at her side, so the Kbox session was scraped. Went over to Grandpa's place for lunch and prayers. Aunt did my hair, plaiting it Scorpion style. Went out again at 2.30pm. Came back at 5pm. Totally bushed! Went to sleep. Ended up missing dinner at Grandpa's. So I only had an apple and two cheese sausages. Then, I went for a jog. Did some more reading. Monkey called again. Wasn't really happy when he heard that I was going out with my friends the next day and not with him since he took a 1 week break from work.
Saturday - Sky was gloomy. Was debating whether or not to go Sentosa with my friends. Decided to take a gamble. Took a taxi and started raining cats and dogs during the ride. Luckily the sky cleared up by 1pm but the Sun didn't come out to play. *pouts* Anyway, we went to the beach and the rest played badminton, frisbee and volleyball under a big shelter. Me? I was feeling lethargic due to the cool weather. Played only badminton and a little volleyball and spent the rest of the afternoon reading a book. Haha.. Such a spoil sport. Oh well... But I got to know some new friends - a pretty athletic girl and 2 really cheeky boys. Haha...
Then went to meet my sis for dinner at 6pm. We went to Pizza Hut and I gave her a treat. We had a good girl-talk over pasta and some finger food. We were so filled to the brim by the end of dinner. Did some window shopping and even contemplated watching a movie. We flipped a coin twice and Fate decided that we should not go to the movies. So we went to do some more grocery shopping instead. I got molested by a Banglah outside the supermarket. As I turned to walk into the supermarket, that asswipe brushed his arm against my bikini clad breast. I turned around angrily and shouted "Fuck You!" He still had the nerve to smirk. I glared back. Then we went to the bookstore cos my sis wanted to get some stationery. Guess what? She got molested too! Guess who? By another Banglah. Wow! This does say a lot about these foreign workers, doesn't it? We both got molested on the same night by the same kind of shit. My sis said Asswipe 2 brushed his hand against her bums as she was bending down to get something. Geez! I hope these asswipes have their dicks shrink painfully to nothing everytime they feel sexually aroused. Anyway, I got more books and we both went home as soon as possible.
Mom called! Haha... I complained to her about having to do 5 buckets of laundry for two hours straight in the morning. It was back-breaking! She laughed heartily over the phone. Hehe... Before my sis snatched the phone away, I shouted into the phone that I missed her!
Sunday - Swimming and suntanning in the morning. Lunch and dinner at Grandpa's. Got a haircut from my hairdresser aunt. Tea break was a cup of homemade aromatic black coffee. Helped my lil cousin with his English stuff. Almost died of laughing and exasperation. Oh well... Came back home and spent an hour and a half ironing my dear sister's uniform. Tiring loh!
7 more days till Mommy comes back home!
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Anyway, Monkey and I resolved our issues two nights ago. I was about to fall asleep when he called. At first, I refused to take his calls. I only answered the phone when he called the third time. We had a good long talk. I am kinda irritated. He just had to tease me a lil and apologise profusely, and I was all ready to forgive him. Sigh...
Mommy's flying off tomorrow. The sad thing is that I can't go to the airport to see her off because, with 6 people and their luggages, my uncle's mini van has got no more space for me. Get a bigger van! Haha... Damn!
I still remember the last time Mommy went on a trip out of Singapore without me, I fell really sick two days after. I think I was about 10 years old. I was running a high temperature and was alternating between feeling extremely hot and extremely cold. Extreme hot - I was perspiring buckets of water even with the fan blowing at me. Extreme cold - I was shivering even under a thick layer of blanket and my teeth chattered and my lips turned blue. I was then under the care of my paternal grandparents and aunts. My aunt brought me to see a doctor but still I didn't get well. Luckily Mommy went on a short trip to Indonesia and returned soon. She knew what happened and quickly brought me to some Chinese sinseh. Had to take some horrible tasting Chinese medicine for a few days, but at least I was well after that.
Conclusion: I cannot function properly without Mommy. Haha... I love her! I'm already counting down to the day she'll be home.
This time, I have got a huge responsibility on my shoulders. I'll be cooking, cleaning, washing and taking care of my
Okie! So before Mommy flies off, I am dragging her out to do some grocery shopping this evening. Gotta stock up food and basic necessities ok. Hehe...
List of things to buy for myself
Ok. I think that's all there is. Till the next time, toodles! =D
Sunday, May 07, 2006Holiday destination? Checked!
Holiday accomodation? Checked!
Holiday itinerary? Checked!
Holiday budget? Checked!
Holiday period? Checked!
Holiday booking? Not yet...
Holiday companions? Still in progress...
Oh yeah! Oh yeah! My holiday plans have been more or less settled. Big big thanks to Mr V for agreeing to accompany me on this much needed relaxation trip and for inviting me to Sentosa next week! I feel so happy! I can't wait! It's been raining like forever in Singapore. Sickening weather...
I hope the sun comes out to play soon. Anyway, my friends are still welcomed to join me on my island getaway. Just confirmed with me by 12th May ok?
Anyway, like what my msn nick says:
There will be Sun, Sand, Sea, Spa and Stephanie!
This is the month of the S-s!
Thursday, May 04, 2006
"I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got till it's gone.
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it.
Where'd you go? I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Please come back home."
-Fort Minor: Where'd You Go-
This song is just so apt at describing what I have gone through the past few days. A soothing and nice melody coupled with meaningful words make me hit the replay button over and over again. The song's pretty haunting actually. Oh well, I needa put the bad times behind me and concentrate on moving on. Then again, the holidays aren't helping much. I've got too much free time on my hands right now. For me, not being preoccupied at all allows my thoughts to run too wild at times. Besides, I can't actually go on a holiday overseas yet until Mommy comes back from her own overseas trip.
"Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I wanna live my life
Like I wanna do
I'm tired of rumours starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is"
-Lindsay Lohan: Rumours-
Haha... Damn funny! This afternoon a guy friend of mine messaged me over MSN asking the most ridiculous question.
Him: Stephanie, got a minute?
Him: I heard from someone you are doing FL?
Me: *rolls eyes* If I'm doing FL, I think I would be filthy rich by now. Want me to show you my empty pockets?
For those of you out there who are not really familiar with this term FL, it is simply an abbreviation for FreeLancing or FreeLancers. A freelancer is a self-employed person working in a profession or trade according to Wikipedia. Adding to that, many sex workers are freelancers, meaning that they provide sexual favours in exchange for money.
The bottom line is I AM NOT doing FL. Goodness! Whatever or whoever put that idea into that someone's mind?! Actually I'm quite flattered that she should think I have what it takes to be a sex worker. So yeah, I have done things that I'm not exactly proud of, but these 'things' never involved monetary terms. But, I digress.
Anyway, my friend refused to tell me directly who was the girl who was spreading this vicious rumour because he had given her his word. But after much probing, he gave me some clues and I guessed it right. The girl even had the cheek to said it was I who told her that I was doing FL. Either she has an extremely fertile imagination or extremely severe dementia. I'm guessing both. And her reason for saying that I'm doing FL is that - brace yourself for this big joke - I saw her a few times at Jurong Point but didn't call her. Err.. Can someone kindly point out what's the link between the reason she gave and the conclusion she made? My guy friend also said he suspected this girl is witholding some information from him. After which, we cracked some really mean and stupid jokes about me doing FL. It was hilarious!
Oh well, I can't really be bothered about that. I'm not even gonna confront that girl either. At least, not yet. Guy friend said he would tell her off for me. Thanks!
Last, but not the least, the song to sum up my whole week -
"Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day"
-Daniel Powter: Bad Day-
Yurp. I had more than a bad day. And like what the song says, (I) need a blue sky holiday.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006Never ever give me time to cool down in an argument.
Never ever expect me to do self-healing.
Never ever apologise when no actions were taken to rectify the problem.
You left me there like a lone alley cat licking its own wounds and you want me to believe that we should give US another chance because you are sincere?
And you wish for me to believe that you are serious about this relationship?!
You said tons of Sorries.
You made tons of Promises.
You gave tons of Excuses.
Yet I felt nothing, expect nothing, understood nothing.
Be strong, my heart.
Sigh... So many problems lately, I even suffered insomnia for a few nights. That was enough to drive me insane. Well.. Almost.
I seriously hope that my sister can be more sensible and get her priorities right - Family before friends. She has to learn to realise that our family is just an average, normal, traditional Chinese-speaking family, and not her girl friends' kind of big, rich, influential, English-speaking family.
Why is she trying so hard to be like her friends? Be happy and be proud of who you are, where you come from. Your real friends will like you for your individuality. They will accept your flaws and recognise your strengths.
I needa take a holiday. Get some sunshine, smiles and laughter back into my life and chase away the dark clouds looming over my head. Oh well... We'll see. Ok, that's all for tonight. Time to watch The Queen of The Damned.
*swoons* Stuart Townsend aka The Brat Prince Lestat is so hot!!!
in 1822, William Herschel discovered (Ur)anus
desires for 2007
+ a good man to settle down with
to be done soon
+ lose more weight
movies watchlist 2007