Tuesday, January 30, 2007Let's see if we're on the same wavelength if you can get this joke.
Don't forget to get your twangers out and play with your balls today!
My ears are blocked.
My nose is stuffed.
My head seems heavy.
My throat is itchy.
Feels like someone just inserted a balloon through my mouth, into my skull and inflated it with air such that the sides of the balloon presses against my eardrums, nostrils and forehead.
Yes. I am sick again.
I seriously suspect that someone cast a voodoo spell on me. Whoever that idiot is, it's not funny! Nothing is going right in my life at this point of time.
"What makes you think you are so unattractive?"
I have absolute confidence in my abilities and everything else but my physical self.
I hate the way I look. I want to be beautiful so that I will be loved.
I hate the way I act sometimes. I want to be invincible so that nothing and noone can bring me down.
I need to learn to love myself.
I need to learn to respect myself.
I need to have a higher self-esteem.
And most importantly, I need to stop myself from repeatedly digging my own grave, from getting out of one bottomless pit and falling into another.
Going to take a nap now. Seeing the handsome doctor later. Hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak!
Sunday, January 28, 2007I've never gotten so wasted in my 21 years of existence.
Went swimming and kickboxing with Munster as usual. After which, we went looking at some cosmetic jewellery and Munster bought a very pretty ring and a pair of candy-sweet earrings while I bought a pair of elegant moonstone earrings. Then we were off to the McDonalds at King Albert's Park to meet Munster's friend.
At around 7 plus in the evening, we went to Holland Village for dinner. Decided to try out the food at Hog's Breath Cafe which originates from Australia. Ordered some fingerfoods and chicken caesar wrap. The food was really good and we just stuffed ourselves with the food as we talked. The service was excellent too! Free flow of iced water, very hospitable staff and I even got a complimentary Hog's Breath Cafe coaster! Hog's Breath Cafe is a superb place to eat because it's got various discounts for various card holders. Munster and I only had to pay $15 each when the bill came. All in all, I give this place 2 thumbs-up 'cos I've only got 2 thumbs. Haha...
I have been feeling kinda down for a period of time and decided to drown my sorrows in alcohol that night. So I kinda pestered Munster to bring me to drink and we walked to Siam Reap after dinner at Hog's Breath Cafe. We ordered 3 pints of erdinger for me and just iced water for Munster 'cos she had drank quite a lot of alcohol the night before.
After the first pint, I was feeling kinda high already. Went to take a piss and then the 2nd pint was ready for consumption. By the time I downed the 2nd pint, my face was bloody flushed and I was feeling light-headed already. Had difficulty finishing the 3rd pint but still managed to do it. Was sobbing my heart out by then, and all I could remember was Munster gently stroking my hair and telling the bartenders that I was fine.
Throughout the whole time, I can only remember doing a few things. Staggering a lil during toilet trips, answering my mom's phone call and trying my darnest not to slurr, rejecting a hug from a bartender, sobbing and SMS-ing loads of rubbish.
A lil while after finishing all the drinks, I was feeling queasy and I knew I had to make it to the toilet fast. Stumbled a lil from getting off the seat and excused myself, then tried very hard to walk straight to the toilet. Took off my pants, sat on the toilet bowl and pissed. Then, it happened. I puked.
I puked into the sink. (The toilet bowl was occupied by my ass lah. Hahaha...) I puked and puked and puked till the whole sink was flooded. Gross! Then I turned on the tap and let the water run, washed my hands, mouth and face. I just sat on the toilet bowl and stoned after that. Munster knocked urgently and repeatedly on the door, asking me if I was OK to which I replied I was fine.
Came out from the toilet after wearing my pants back on. Munster held me firmly by the arm and led me back to the seat. Don't remember what I did but had another urge to puke again. Excused myself again and made it to the toilet just in time to squat down and puke into the toilet bowl.
I puked and puked. Just squat there stoning, oblivious to what was happening around me. Realised that puking when drunk was not as bad as puking when sick 'cos the vomit just came out damn easily. Again, was led back to the seat by Munster. Couldn't quite remember what happened then until Munster told me the next day. Seemed like I couldn't keep my head up and Munster wanted to send me home but I was babbling like a fool 'bout not wanting to go home and all. Luckily I am a quiet drunk - don't make a lot of noise or funny actions when I'm drunk. Thank goodness for that last shred of diginity. She gave in to my babbles and pleas by staying till it was closing time and we really had to go.
Munster supported me firmly by the arm and we walked to hail a cab. I was having difficulty walking straight but I tried very hard to. I wasn't about to buckle and make myself look more foolish than I already had. Got into a cab and I took out a plastic bag despite almost half-gone. Wasn't going to puke into the cab, wasn't going to puke out of the window while the cab was moving. Then the last thing I remembered before drifting off was holding very tightly to my plastic bag.
Then Munster nudged me awake to ask me about the exact location of my place. I replied and soon I was home. Puked four times into the plastic bag when I was at the void deck. Made it home in one piece, carrying a plastic bag half-full with vomit. Hahaha... Went to the rubbish chute and threw it away. Washed my face, rinsed my mouth and tumbled into bed immediately. The moment I hit the pillows, I passed out.
Didn't even know what time I reached home that night but I awoke at 5.51am, feeling very sober and stupid.
Whoever got drunk over 3 pints (1.5litres) of erdinger?! Me.
My first time getting wasted. Definitely very memorable.
Went to NUS the next day for dinner with Munster and Melvin. After which I went for desserts with Munster at Munchie Monkey's. They were having some sort of Art Fest and a lil performance was held on the small platform there.
The performance at Munchie Monkey's.
We ordered Chocolate Brownie and Apple Cobbler. Yummy! Then we left and went to explore Munster's room at the hall. Haha... She's got a very nice cosy room which I think seemed bigger than my Brudda's. Then I went over to my Brudda's room at Sheares Hall for a while to do a bit of catching up. I think I was still feeling the hangover 'cos I was pretty quiet and suddenly had difficulty holding back my tears. Luckily, it was almost time to go home and I let my tears fall freely on the way home in the cab.
Went to Gramps' today. Was feeling bored, so I took some shots of my thunder thighs while lying down on my aunt's bed.
Sorry for the dark pictures and thanks for bearing with the long post. =)
P.S: Sorry Mommy, for making you so worried that night. I didn't mean to abuse myself that way, but I'm just unhappy with myself. I don't like me. I will get my life back on track, I promise. =(
P.P.S: Thank you, Munster dearie. Thanks for taking care of me and for being there for me when I was down. *hugs*
Wednesday, January 24, 2007Mom bought me two red cotton panties yesterday. The shade of red is to my liking but not the design of the panties! They are Grandmama panties! Eeeewww... She didn't get me any new PJs for the Lunar New Year, so I'll go get some sexy lingerie myself. =D
Yesterday I went swimming at a friend's condominium. There was a slight drizzle but I still managed 40 laps there in 50minutes. I thought it was a pretty good timing but she said I was too slow. But I was damn shagged after that. Then, I still went for training on the same evening 'cos my instructor said the team missed me. *blushes*
Training was damn intensive last night. For part of the warm up exercises, we did 75 push-ups instead of the usual 50, 100 crunches and 50 leg raises. (Not to mention I did another 21 laps at the competitive pool just now in the afternoon.) No wonder my arms are falling off and my legs feel like steel lead now. I so badly need a good massage now that I'm willing to give free kisses in exchange. Any takers?
Anyway, after training last night, while in the bus on the way home, my instructor dropped a bomb on me. Last Sunday, there was a pair of Indonesia-based martial arts practitioners who were in town. They invited our team to take part in some tournament (some sort of World Championships, I think) which will be held in September.
So yeah, Sir said he will be entering me in the tournament women's since I'm the only female in the team and I've got the potential. He wanted me to get some exposure and warned me that the usual training and training for competition are totally two different things. Like, DUH! It's breath-taking enough just thinking about the immense pressure! I was listening with my jaws wide opened, expecting to hear the usual 'I was just kidding with you' part which never fails to come from the guys whenever they tease me 'bout entering me in some competitions. But he never said that, which means that he is dead serious this time round. *smacks my forehead*
And so in order to get me ready for the September tournament, Sir has decided to bring me and a selected few over to the headquarters/training school in Philippines some time in June where I will train on the beach by the sea with 4 female World Championships winners and Sir's brother for a week. Aiyo, it's like some boot camp ok. So scary... *frowns* I would also have to watch what I eat and go on a strict diet and workout routine from now on. Shucks!
But ah, Mommy seems to have objections about me going to Philippines 'cos she thinks it's unstable and unsafe there, and it's too dangerous for a lone female to be in an unfamiliar terrirtory, not to mention the rigourous training which I will have to undergo. I've already sustained a few injuries, one of which I'm still recovering from but will take another 3 to 9 months to heal completely. =(
When I first joined this martial arts team, it was out of pure interest, passion and the need to keep fit. Never did I imagine I may have the chance to represent Singapore in this form of martial arts. If only Singapore recognises this form of Filippino martial arts, our team would be part of Team Singapore and it would be easier for me to take leave and have them granted should I need to go overseas for training or competitions. Hehe...
I give up.
I'm tired of not having my feelings reciprocated.
Won't confess, won't wait, won't hope.
Won't put myself through such shit.
You just ain't worth it.
I won't bother you anymore from today onwards.
Another chapter of my life closed.
At least I have that much dignity left.
Sunday, January 21, 2007"What's so attractive about you?"
Was the first thing that came to my mind when I was browsing through Friendster, looking at the recent photos of my ex-crushes. Shit lah! My friends and family really weren't kidding when they say my taste in men sucks.
Hahaha... *smacks my forehead*
I'm thinking - since I've got a few guys I'm pretty much attracted to currently, I might be wondering about the same question in the near future. Muahahaha!!! I'm hopeless... *groans*
This year, I've seemed to have lost the drive and motivation to do what's needed to be done. All I can think of is to have fun. In layman terms, I just want to play but I don't want to work! This is disastrous!!!
Wah kao! What is wrong with me?! First, it's the bimbotic boys issue. Then, it's being bitten by the lazy worms issue. Maybe someone cast a spell upon me using black magic. Good heavens!
Disease and illness are apparently transmittable over MSN. I'm having backache as well after Munster told me over MSN that she has backache. But I think my backache might have stem from bad postures and perhaps too much vigorous
Anyway, hope my period stops by tomorrow so that I can resume my swimming.
Saturday, January 20, 2007Today I saw this at the window outside the Physics Laboratory in school.
It's a leaf...
It's a big leaf with twigs at its side..
The 'leaf' walks! It's alive!
It's not a leaf, silly!
It's a leaf insect! OMFG!
Yeah! This creature actually caused quite a sensation within our tutorial group. Everyone, including my tutor, either took pictures of it or videotaped it with their camera phones. Haha... I was asking my friend if she knows whether the leaf insect flies because I wanna pick it up on my hand. I have a phobia of flying insects. EEEeeks!
Well... We tested out our hypothesis and realised that leaf insects do have wings and can fly but only for very short distances. My friends think the leaf insect is "disgusting" with a very "disgusting" body and "disgusting" legs. I thought it was quite fascinating instead. Not only is its body camouflaged like a leaf, its legs can also be mistaken as a leaf stalk or a twig. Amazing, isn't it?!
So anyway, I touched it and the leaf-like wings are quite soft like a butterfly's wings. It also has an extra pair of translucent wings beneathe the leaf-like cover. The way it crawls reminds me of how a tarantula moves. I tried to get it to climb onto my hand but I think it doesn't like the smell of my hand 'cos everytime it lifted up its legs and was about to climb onto my hand, it seemed to have second thoughts and turned the other way instead. =(
So anyway, I didn't want to be home on a Friday night since I could wake up late on a Saturday morning. Kinda pestered Munster to come out and hang. In the end, we decided to go to Holland Village and have supper. I reached Holland V first and was walking around when I saw some street performance.
WOW! Can you do that?!
Don't piss me off or I'll make you stay still in this position for two hours!
The performance ended pretty quick so I was back to walking around the area, hoping nobody thinks that I'm some pinoy hooker and come up quoting me a price or something. Luckily, I saw a little dog nearby with her owners. So I played with the dog for a while and talked to her owners too. Friendly dog, friendly owners.
Then Munster and Melvin arrived. We had some sliced fish horfun and seaweed soup with sliced fish. Yum yum! Spending time with these two chases my blues away! =D
Then we adjourned to Coffee Bean for somemore crazy talk time and cakes. I had Mudpie!!! So sinful but I simply cannot resist dark chocolates! I know, I know I've got to watch my weight. *frowns*
Anyway, we had a good time laughing and talking while I tried to battle with my splitting headache. Stayed there all the way till closing time which was around 1am, then we parted to go home.
I've got a very strong urge to go Kbox tomorrow evening. Hehe...
I think there is something wrong with my stomach. Been having gastric and tummy upsets the past few days. Mommy suggested I go see the doctor and get a thorough checkup. Don't want to 'cos I'm afraid that there may be bad news. What I don't know doesn't exist.
On a sidenote, I feel like I'm being twirled around the finger, being played like a fool. And I don't like it one bit. I don't wanna feel like I'm throwing myself at you. Neither do I wanna portray myself as some sexually-deprived, desperate whore.
Maybe it's high time I add you to my Ignore list.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Karma is a bitch that bites back hard in your face. I've been an emotional wreck today. Maybe it's because of the hormones. Or maybe it's just the buried memories being forcefully dug up like ripping open an old wound.
However do you expect me to forgive someone who just walked out from your life more than 2 years ago without a word?
Not to mention that someone has shared many intimate moments with you.
After all these years, you've finally decided to make an appearance again by sending me an SMS early in the morning. You wanted back in my life just like that?!
How could you act as if nothing has happened, that your then sudden departure was no big deal, and expect us to be able to pick up from where we left off?
You can't and shldn't blame me for the icy-ness and hostility towards you. I see no point in keeping any further contact with you. I've moved on with my life, you should to.
Yeah... I'm no longer that 18 year old Stephanie Dara which you once knew, kissed and held in your arms. But you still managed to rile up 1001 emotions within me with just a few SMSes. Totally spoilt my day, ruined my mood.
My last SMS to you today was short and sweet - Go to Hell.
And I meant it.
How do I stop myself from falling into one pit after another?!
Cried twice today - once in the studio and another while taking a hot shower. In the studio, only 2 fat tears rolled down my cheeks. But when the hot water stung my skin, the tears ran free. Cried long and hard.
Now my head hurts but at least I'm feeling a lil better.
I've got a lot on my mind now, but none of the thoughts is making any sense to me. Can't seem to grasp what I am thinking and put it down in words. So I'll end off here for now.
Monday, January 15, 2007I need to stop checking my mobile phone for your SMSes every few minutes.
I need to stop looking at the MSN Messenger contact list now and then just to see if you are online.
I need to stop thinking about you.
You, yes you.
Please fuckin' stay out of my head.
I must wean myself off you.
Like a moth to a flame...
The Spider and The Fly
"Will you walk into my parlor?" said the spider to the fly;
"'Tis the prettiest little parlor that ever you may spy.
The way into my parlor is up a winding stair,
And I have many curious things to show when you are there."
"Oh no, no," said the little fly; "to ask me is in vain,
For who goes up your winding stair can ne'er come down again."
"I'm sure you must be weary, dear, with soaring up so high.
Said the cunning spider to the fly: "Dear friend, what can I do
"Sweet creature!" said the spider, "you're witty and you're wise;
The spider turned him round about, and went into his den,
Alas, alas! how very soon this silly little fly,
And now, dear little children, who may this story read,
Sunday, January 14, 2007
It's just those rainy days
Spend a lifetime tryin' to wash it away
Until the Sun comes out and shines again
Smile for me, smile for me
All of those rainy days
Spend ya lifetime tryin' to wash away
Until the Sun shines and I see your face
Smile at me, smile at me
Sick of all this rain. Still it hardly kept me from going swimming. Was drizzling quite a bit on Thursday, but I still went for a swim. It was damn good. Probably 'cos I had the whole pool to myself. Somehow, I found it easier to swim in such a weather 'cos I completed 25 laps in less than an hour. Water in the pool was warm too. But I realised that my nipples really erected when I went into the water and out of the water. Haha.. Kinda embarrassing cos the hardened nipples were pretty much obvious against the thin cloth of the bikini.
Was shivering when I got out of the pool as I've forgotten to bring along my towel. Then the rain got heavier and I was trapped in the shelter by the pool. Saw the fiftyish lifeguard again. He acknowledged me with a very friendly "Hello! You're back again!" and a smile. Then I also exchanged a few words with 2 other younger and very cute lifeguards, who amidst the conversation said I was very brave to be swimming in the rain. Hahahaha...
Someone claimed the lifeguards initiated a conversation with me because I'm well-endowed. Bleah!
I'm wondering if I should go swimming later on.
Then after the swim on Thursday, I went for kickboxing with Munster. She's such a sweetheart! Knowing that I love chocolates (esp. the dark bitter ones), she bought me a bar of Meiji black chocolate. Muacks! I guess that's what good friends are like. =) Love her to bits already...
After which, we went to Billy Bombers for dinner. Both of us shared a Seafood Platter course and some nachos. Though we were stuffing ourselves to the face with all the food, we were too full to finish everything. I feel that Billy Bombers shouldn't serve such big portions of food or too much fries for an individual 'cos most of us tend not being able to finish the food and end up wasting quite a lot of it.
I skipped training this morning, thinking that I'll go for a swim instead but the bad weather didn't make that possible. Think my instructor is pretty disappointed with my lacklustre performance at training this few weeks. He did mention to me a couple of weeks ago that I would be roped into the demonstration team. This means that the demo team would be going around promoting this form of martial arts by conducting workshops and taking part in exhibitions.
The reason why I am needed is 'cos I am the only female around with enough experience and skills to kick some guys' asses and throw them onto the ground. Wow! I am honoured.
It's Sunday again! Sucks... Don't wanna go back to school!
Wednesday, January 10, 2007I remember as a child, I'd always loved reading Enid Blyton children's stories. And in one of her stories, one of the characters - an old woman, said that if there is enough blue sky to make a sailor's pants, it would not rain.
Since then, I've always been looking to see if there is enough blue sky to make a sailor's pants whenever I plan to go swimming.
Sigh... I'm still so much like a child. Think like one, act like one, even look like one.
Took a cab this early morning to rush for an 8.30am class. Managed to hail a cab quickly, but bloody cabbie uncle forbade me to have my sandwich breakfast on his vehicle. I mean like, WTF, why not? It was in a plastic bag and I'm not a messy eater. Or is he sensitive to the smell of hotdog and cheese?
Oh well... Since I can't have my half-eaten piping hot breakfast on the cab, then I shall let the smell of hotdog and cheese permeate the air-conditioned interior of the vehicle then, irritating the cabbie uncle. Evil!
But serves him right 'cos my sandwich turned soggy after I've alighted from the cab. Me hate soggy sandwiches! RAR!!!
Today I twittered a message - "How many times can a heart be broken?"
Do you have an answer to that?
I'm currently attracted to 4 different guys all at the same time. How sucky is that?! 2 of them are from my martial arts team (no, not my instructor lah! although he's a good catch but he's taken already ok?), 1 is a friend (nope, not TX), another is from my school (he's a pakistani chinese! Let's call him S).
Oh by the way, I saw S at the bus-stop today. Didn't realise that he was around until G nudged me. S seemed to have put on a lil bit more weight after the hols, but still looking cute. Heh! Seems like everytime we meet, I'm not looking my best - messy hair, bloated stomach, perspiring and all. But I'm so painfully shy that I was hiding behind G, Z and P the whole time. G was talking so loudly, teasing me and threatening to call out to S so that he would look my way. I practically went down on my knees and beg G to pipe down. Hahaha... But I think S did look my way once, and I quickly looked away. Shit! I suck.
How how?! I'm so shy but o' so fickle-minded! As Munster once said before - I'm such a shameless slut! =D
I think I'm addicted to swimming. Although I'm dog tired after 6 hours of school, I still went swimming and even managed to complete 20 laps! Haha... I was so tempted to swim in my new boxer underwear.
I like the new boxer underwears I've gotten from LaSenza with Munster last Monday. I think I shall go Plaza Singapura after training this Sunday to get more of those boxer underwears. Hope they are not out of stock yet!
Sunday, January 07, 2007Update at 11.15pm:
So I woke up early this morning for training. Munster and friend came to have a look at our training. I've got so many blisters on my hand again! Then after training we went to Park Mall first so that I could have a shower, before proceeding to Cathay to buy tickets for a movie. Went to Sushi-Don for lunch and then off to the arcade to play some games. Got bitten on my left shoulder by Munster twice. Ouch!
Went back to Cathay after an hour of games. As it was still too early to enter the cinema, we walked around the shopping mall, looking, touching and gushing at each and every item on display. Haha... Time passed quite fast and soon we were seating in front of the big movie screen for our show - Pan's Labyrinth. It's actually a Spanish fairy tale for adults but not to worry as there are English subtitles for us to follow. Not gonna spoil it for y'all, but it was not bad if you like fantasy and war stuff. Munster thinks that it's a really cool show!
After the movie, I was so full of popcorn and so we walked to Plaza Singapura. There we planned to shop first before grabbing dinner since all of us were still quite full. So we walked around, looking at clothes, bags, etc. I bought 4 new tops and 2 FBT shorts which amounted to about $120. Tsk tsk... Gotta watch my spending since I've yet to buy my Lunar New Year's clothings.
By the time we were done with all the shopping and ready to get dinner, it was already 9.15pm. Ate handmade noodles (ban mian) at the foodcourt where I've got my third love bite on the right arm from Munster again. Ouch ouch! I swear either the girl's got a fetish for biting or she's a piranha in her previous life. Muahahhaa!!!
It was 10.15 when we were ready to go home. Queues for the taxis were so long, so it wasn't really a good idea to take a cab from Plaza Singapura home. But there was a dull throb starting at the back of my head and my body was aching in every possible place from training and being out for more than half the day. So I started feeling a lil grumpy. Munster was trying her best to cheer me up and I did for a while until we got onto a pretty packed bus. It got even more packed along the way and some men were standing too close to me for comfort. Besides, I can't wait to get back home. So my mood darkened further. Sorry darling Munster, for me being such a spoilt brat. =(
It's back to school for me again tomorrow. I don't wanna go back to school! Life sucks.
I've got training later on. But I feel like giving it a miss. See lah, sir! You kept on issuing long training breaks that now I've lost the momentum and even have trouble rekindling the passion for that form of martial arts. Anyway, I'm expecting fewer people to turn up for training tomorrow morning cos not all may have been informed of the resumed training schedule. The management sucks! And that's why you need a woman, i.e ME, to help out with housekeeping matters.
In addition, school's starting on Monday and I'm feeling like a Primary One kid who is apprehensive of the new semester and feeling a lil teary-eyed when thinking bout going back to school. I'm seriously dreading it. I think I shall go on a hunt for one of those loaded old men and become be a tai-tai so that I don't have to work, but still have the cash and blings blings rolling in so that I can do whatever I want to!
P.S: I'll update again later tonight. I'm still craving for that Turkish lamb shank and mashed potatoes that we girls had for dinner on Friday night!
P.P.S: Might have fewer updates when the new school semester starts cos I'll probably be too busy and too lazy to blog. But I'll try my darnest to blog ok? In the meantime, do continue to watch out for my twitter space for sporadic updates!
Friday, January 05, 2007She was just a dull-looking dandelion, with small fluffy grey hair and a crooked stalk. She wasn't planted by the gardener himself. Neither was she one of those pretty flowers in his garden that shone with bright colours. As a wild seed, she was blown by the wind into his garden where she wedged herself firmly in the soil, among the other beautiful flowers.
Yet, the Gardener didn't mind. He didn't wrench her out and threw her away. Instead, he continued caring for her as he did for all his flowers in the garden. While he worked in the garden, he would tell them his thoughts and feelings, of stories about love found and lost, of funny incidents which he'd encountered when he went into town.
In fact, he didn't notice her presence at first. So she secretly promised herself that she would try her utmost to become as gorgeous as the other flowers and attract his attention.
Then one day, while he was doing his usual daily routine of watering and checking the plants for diseases, he stopped beside her and bent down for a closer look. "Hello", he said to her. She glowed with so much pride that she thought she was going to burst any moment. Then, she tried to puff up her small fluffy grey hair and straighten her crooked stalk for him.
"However did you manage to get here?", the Gardener asked with a fond smile on his sad face as he stroked her small fluffy grey hair and crooked stalk lovingly. She peered closely at his face and looked into his eyes. She saw him hurting inside and suddenly, she found herself aching for him as well.
When he realised she couldn't possibly answer him, the Gardener stood up and walked back to his house with slow heavy footsteps. She looked on heartbreakingly at his back view, at his slouching shoulders, at the powerful rough hands that held the watering can. The dull-looking dandelion, with small fluffy grey hair and a crooked stalk longed to be his source of comfort, to soothe him and take away all his pain.
How could she not feel for him? How could she not be attracted to him? How could a dull-looking dandelion, with small fluffy grey hair and a crooked stalk, ever compete for his love with the other fine-looking flowers?
She didn't dare hope. Didn't dare hope the Gardener would remember her. Didn't dare hope he would stop by again to talk to her. Didn't dare hope he would feel anything for her. She bowed her crooked stalk and wept as the gentle wind caressed her small fluffy grey head.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007Had an argument with Mom yesterday regarding her side of relatives. I was never really as close to my maternal's side of family than to my paternal's. However, that's another story for another time. So yeah, as I was saying, a few of my aunts, uncles and young cousins came to our house yesterday. I hate it when this particular cousin comes to my house. So bloody ill-mannered. So anal! He could never keep his hands to himself and would always mess with my stuff and whatever stuff he could lay his hands on, without any permission. And his bloody anal parents never bothered to take him in hand.
Of course I wasn't happy. I'm very territorial when it comes to my things. I mean - you don't go to other people's house and start messing around with their stuff without asking for permission, do you? Well, I don't. And I always keep my hands to myself since young, always asking for permission if I wanna do something or go somewhere.
Raised my voice and barely managed to control my temper. Was so pissed off that my breaths came out loud and controlled, and my hands were trembling with anger. I glared at that cousin several times but he sure was thick-skinned. Even had the audacity to enter my bedroom, which of course I chased him out with a very firm but harsh 'Out!'.
Oh well, these people spoiled my day and thus, I was behaving like a spoilt brat, looking all sulky and scowling the whole day. When they finally went home, Mom came home and gave me a stern lecture and now we're having a cold war.
Woke up late today and only went swimming in the afternoon. Sun wasn't shining that brightly but it was ok. The pool was pretty empty except for a couple of guys. Then a lifeguard in his early fifties actually came to make small talk with me.
I was moving the deckchair.
Him: Hi! You need help with that?
Me: (thinking if I look that weak) Oh! Nah... It's ok. I can manage. *gives a smile*
Him: OK! *returns a smile*
While swimming, I noticed he was doing push-ups and some stretching exercises by the pool. Ummm... Weird.
Got up from the pool after finishing my 20 laps,
Him: Hey! Happy New Year ah! Happy New Year to you!
Me: Happy New Year to you too. *gives a weak smile*
Later when I was leaving,
Him: Hey! You going off arh?
Him: Oh! Do come back more often to swim ok?! Don't be shy!
Me: *laughs* OK!
Him: See you soon.
Me: See ya.
Shit! That lifeguard's not hitting on me, is he?! I hope I'm not paranoid but I didn't see him talking to anyone else but other lifeguards. Geez... Anyway, I'm going back to swim tomorrow morning, might see him again. Oh well... Most important thing is, the sun had better be shining brightly!
Went to the airport just now to send my aunt's Aussie friend off. She's going back to Australia after being here in Singapore for 10 days. We walked past some crystal shop and went in to have a look. Something caught my eye when I was browsing at the necklaces.
I really really really love this necklace! So pretty! Anyone wanna get it for me or make an exact replica of that for me? *looks at Munster with pleading eyes* Hehehe...
Then we went to have dinner at this Thai restaurant at Terminal 2. Ordered 2 servings of green mango salad, 1 serving of thai fish cakes, 1 serving of sambal stir-fried kangkong, fried rice noodle (chicken) and tom yum seafood soup for me, and beef curries for my aunt and friend, and mango with glutinous rice for dessert. We also had free flow of Chinese tea while the Aussie friend had fresh pineapple juice. Didn't take any photos of the food cos I was starving. Haha...
The total bill for that meal is about $81. Worth it cos the ambience was good, the seats were big and comfy, the food was yummy but the only grouse was that the waitresses could have served the dishes slower, instead of serving all the dishes at one go and end up cluttering the table.
At the departure gate, we bade our farewells the French way. Hug and kiss the left cheek, then kiss the right cheek, then kiss the left cheek again. Oh well... I'll be seeing her again this coming June in Australia.
Got caught in the heavy rain on our way home from the airport. Was drenched quite badly. Luckily I wasn't wearing a white t-shirt. Came home, took a cold shower somemore, cos I forgot and was too lazy to switch on the heater. Right now, feeling kinda queasy. =(
P.S: OMFG!!! Motorola has got this new red mobile phone! So chio! It's exactly the kind of red that I would go for! So pweety!!! And it's all for a good cause. Go check it out here.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
And it ends here...
Pardon the not-so-sharp pictures. It's the best I could do with my camera phone ok. And the hand doesn't belong to me. I didn't even notice that there was a hand in the way when I was snapping away. Bleah!
However, DK managed to capture a more decent picture.
Anyway, we went out for a big feast last night. I didn't take any pictures cos I was already starving. There was 7 dishes in all - oyster omelette, belachan fried pomfret, baby kailan in oyster sauce, chilli crabs, hot-plate tofu, butter prawns and sambal clams! They didn't have crayfish, you know! The crayfish were all sold out by the time we arrived. How could they not have more?! ARGH!
Anyway, the bill rang up to a grand total of $119 which was well worth it for 7 scrumptious dishes and a free flow of hot chrysanthymum tea. Oh man, just thinking of it now makes my mouth water. Hehe...
I am in deep trouble lah. Been gorging myself on all these sinfully delicious food these few days as we had to play host to my aunt's Australian friend, bringing her around to try as much good food as possible. Rojak, nasi bryani, popiah, nonya kuehs, yam paste in sweet pumpkin sauce, dim sum, lots of different alcoholic drinks, etc. *whines*
I'm very tempted to go swimming today. But when I thought of how it is a public holiday today and all those foreign workers would be crowding the whole pool and leering at each and every local woman, I think I'll give swimming a miss today and go tomorrow instead. Damn those foreign workers! Let it rain today!
Okies, I'm gonna just bum around and wait for Munster's call. Ho ho ho... Let's all get beer-y high!
Monday, January 01, 2007
Had champagne last night. Had enough to make me somewhat light-headed and sleepy cos I drank it in gulps on an empty stomach.
It's that time of the year again - to review and reflect on the past year's resolutions and make new ones this year.
New Year resolutions for 2006
a) Make good use of my spare time and earn more money.
Yeah! I've managed to do that. Ummm... Spent quite a lot too.
b) Study harder and attain better results, a higher GPA score.
Nope! Was pretty slack this year, results dipped a little too much for my liking.
c) Keep fit and healthy. (Good health for all too)
Yup! Signed up for a gym membership, took up kickboxing and martial arts. Went for swims regularly. Watched my diet too.
d) Lose weight. (in all the right places of cos')
Of course! I lost more than I'd expected. Good job! *gives myself a big pat on the back* Never belittle my
e) Get a proper boyfriend and be committed to a proper relationship.
Ermm... Still waiting, searching, hoping, praying...
f) Spend quality time with my family and besties.
Yeah. I think I did managed to stick to that. Made some new friends too. Hehe...
g) Improve on my pathetic social life.
Umm... I think I did improve it by a little. Not a bad start. =)
h) Be very careful in choosing friends.
Yeah. Got that done as well.
i) Start planning a big bash for my 21st birthday.
Nope! It was a major flop for a big bash. Ended up with a small cosy dinner at the restaurant with Mommy and lil sister and a big chocolate fudge cake to top it off. Munster also gave me a lunch treat at Crystal Jade Restaurant. *beams* It's not that bad, after all.
j) Try to be more punctual for classes.
Ermm.. The key word here is 'try' and I think I did try and succeeded most of the time.
k) Enjoy life to the fullest.
Seems like a pretty good year for me to have achieved quite a bit of what I'd planned to do. Let's see, what're my plans for this year...
New Year resolutions for 2007
a) Be more motivated to study and work harder in order to cross over.
b) Continue to keep fit and healthy.
c) Lose a bit more weight and get toned up before my aunt's big day.
d) Keep in contact with my besties and friends. Maintain our friendships.
e) Keep a look out for that special someone to share my life with.
f) Be more respectful and good-mannered to my mom, the elders and family members.
g) Pamper Mommy more.
Well... I think that's all for now. I've got a positive feeling that 2007 will be filled with many goodies for me. Hehe... For one, there's the wedding reception in March to look forward to and a trip to Australia in late May to attend my aunt's wedding. Can't wait!
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desires for 2007
+ a good man to settle down with
to be done soon
+ lose more weight
movies watchlist 2007