This feisty lil Bitch has horns!

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Karma is a bitch that bites back hard in your face. I've been an emotional wreck today. Maybe it's because of the hormones. Or maybe it's just the buried memories being forcefully dug up like ripping open an old wound.

However do you expect me to forgive someone who just walked out from your life more than 2 years ago without a word?

Not to mention that someone has shared many intimate moments with you.

After all these years, you've finally decided to make an appearance again by sending me an SMS early in the morning. You wanted back in my life just like that?!

Ridiculous!

How could you act as if nothing has happened, that your then sudden departure was no big deal, and expect us to be able to pick up from where we left off?

I can't.

You can't and shldn't blame me for the icy-ness and hostility towards you. I see no point in keeping any further contact with you. I've moved on with my life, you should to.

Yeah... I'm no longer that 18 year old Stephanie Dara which you once knew, kissed and held in your arms. But you still managed to rile up 1001 emotions within me with just a few SMSes. Totally spoilt my day, ruined my mood.

My last SMS to you today was short and sweet - Go to Hell.

And I meant it.

*****

How do I stop myself from falling into one pit after another?!

Cried twice today - once in the studio and another while taking a hot shower. In the studio, only 2 fat tears rolled down my cheeks. But when the hot water stung my skin, the tears ran free. Cried long and hard.

Now my head hurts but at least I'm feeling a lil better.

*****

I've got a lot on my mind now, but none of the thoughts is making any sense to me. Can't seem to grasp what I am thinking and put it down in words. So I'll end off here for now.

Toodles.

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+ Name: Stephanie Dara
+ Age: Forever 21
+ Horoscope: Libra
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desires for 2007

+ a good man to settle down with
+ a GPA score of higher than 4.1
+ a ton of good crime fiction books
+ a few more pounds to be shed
+ to look and feel good about myself
*****Wishlist*****

to be done soon

+ lose more weight
+ ~~get a new pair of spectacles~~
+ shop for new shoes
+ a pedicure & manicure session
+ an eyebrow trimming session
+ ~~a hair makeover~~
+ ~~shop for CNY clothes~~
+ shop for bra and panties

movies watchlist 2007

+ ~~Curse of The Golden Flower~~
+ ~~Pan's Labyrinth~~
+ One Last Dance
+ Zodiac
+ Perfume: The Story of a Murderer
+ Hannibal Rising
+ The Number 23
+ Spider-Man 3
+ 28 Weeks Later
+ Ocean's Thirteen
+ Nancy Drew: The Mystery in
Hollywood Hills
+ ~~Harry Potter & The Order of Phoenix~~

my babes

[*] Charlette
[*] Dee
[*] Denise
[*] Gladys
[*] Imms
[*] Jo
[*] Lil Sis
[*] Linyan
[*] Lynn
[*] Munster
[*] Rozie

my hunks

[*] Ahxing
[*] Amos
[*] Brudda
[*] Dan
[*] Darthsid
[*] DK
[*] Dude
[*] Hao
[*] John