I thought I should say something about this. Does the problem lie with the people around me or me or both parties? 5 years ago, I had many friends. 3 years ago, I had 2 extremely close friends whom I can trust my dear life with. 1 year ago, I don't think I don't think I had any real friends anymore.

The 3 of us kinda drifted apart, due to studies and other personal commitments. Hardly meet up anymore, instead staying in contact via SMSes or MSN chats or if I'm very lucky - a phone call once in a blue moon. I treasure these relationships a lot. One of the reasons why I hold them so dear to me is because they have saved me from the brink of death more than once, being there for me in times of trouble.

Then I thought I found another very good friend whom I can connect with on a deeper level. Again, we drifted apart in the past year or so.

I think I have difficulty maintaining friendships. I also think I do make a bloody strong effort to hold on to this now very frail threads that bind us. I also feel that perhaps these special people who have special places in my heart don't feel the same way towards me.

Perhaps we should just let whatever we have between us to just erode to nothingness and not try to salvage it. But you know I'm too stubborn and that I love and care bout all of you too much to let that happen. So I will persevere till the very end and make things work out fine.


Despite all these obstacles, I have formed a new friendship recently with this crazy adorable female homosapien who goes by the pet name of Munster. Haha.. Through her, I widened my social circle and got to know more cool people. Really enjoy spending time with this cool chick who actually managed to make the once-arduous-task-of-shopping such a joy for me! Wonder what magic spells she cast on me. Muahahaha... Looking forward to another crazy drinking session with her and her friends.



No matter what, I am truly grateful for each and every dear friend who have stood firmly by me through my darkest hours, for putting up with my nonsense and for believing in me time and time again when all faith was lost. Thank you for bringing the light when things seem so bleak. Thank you for being the shelters which I could turn to in times of turbulence. Thank you for filling up my life with colours, warmth, joy, tears, laughter and sorrow.


Geez... I feel so emo tonight.