Saturday, April 22, 2006
I had a paper yesterday. And my sister wore my shorts to school by mistake. Got pissed off cos' I had no available shorts left. The rest had been washed up and being dried. Called up that lil' bugger and gave her a good tongue lashing. Fortunately one of the shorts got dried in the hot sun just in time.Sigh... My fuse is short and my temper is getting from bad to worse these past few days. I am having extreme mood swings. I've already had 3 cycles of menses these two months. What is wrong with me?!
Not to mention, I have been feeling rather upset with Mike these few days. First, I made a rather unpleasant discovery. Then, I'm feeling insecure. I am ready to throw in the towel and call it quits. It's difficult being in a relationship. I am sick of doubting myself and subjecting myself to all these crap. Yes, there are happy times. But I am an unsatisfied lass. I've got a problem with trust and commitment. WHY?!
I've never burdened anyone, but myself with my past. I have always been battling with the inner demons on my own. And the repercussions? Occasional outbursts of temper. People have described me as being full of crap. But they don't understand me. I am unfathomable. Even I have problems understanding me sometimes. But I pity Mike or anyone who is close to me. It is mentally exhausting to be in a serious committed relationship with me. Things are so unpredictable. I am so unpredictable.
"I don't know what makes you happy. You are so difficult to please."
A lady once enlightened me to the fact that it's not easy being at the helm of things. It's not easy being a prodigy. As you climb higher, your friends gets fewer. Not many people are of my calibre, not many people can understand. Perhaps, I am the one who is complicating matters.
I have said this many times -
I don't belong in this era.
And it's true.
I am, but a lonely old soul, wandering to find her purpose in life.
P.S: Please do not try to make sense of what I have written above. I am not liable for any brain haemorrhage that may occur.
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+ a good man to settle down with
+ a GPA score of higher than 4.1
+ a ton of good crime fiction books
+ a few more pounds to be shed
+ to look and feel good about myself
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to be done soon
+ lose more weight
+ get a new pair of spectacles
+ shop for new shoes
+ a pedicure & manicure session
+ an eyebrow trimming session
+ a hair makeover
+ shop for CNY clothes
+ shop for bra and panties
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+ Curse of The Golden Flower
+ Pan's Labyrinth
+ One Last Dance
+ Zodiac
+ Perfume: The Story of a Murderer
+ Hannibal Rising
+ The Number 23
+ Spider-Man 3
+ 28 Weeks Later
+ Ocean's Thirteen
+ Nancy Drew: The Mystery in
Hollywood Hills
+ Harry Potter & The Order of Phoenix
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[*] Charlette
[*] Dee
[*] Denise
[*] Gladys
[*] Imms
[*] Jo
[*] Lil Sis
[*] Linyan
[*] Lynn
[*] Munster
[*] Rozie
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[*] Ahxing
[*] Amos
[*] Brudda
[*] Dan
[*] Darthsid
[*] DK
[*] Dude
[*] Hao
[*] John
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