This feisty lil Bitch has horns!

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Can one ever feel like oneself is dying?

Wasting away, gradually but surely...

Because, I can.

I can feel that I am dying slowly, but surely.

And this feeling sucks.

Everything seems so off.

Nothing (even people) is helping.

Uneven skin pigmentation and ugly pimples popping up on my once almost flawless face.
Losing hair at a pretty fast rate.
Blurry eyesight after every lessons everyday.
Getting sick becomes a monthly routine.
Tightness in the chest, heaviness in the head.

For the past 3 days, I have been down with fever and the cough-until-your-lungs-hurt-and-your-throat-turns-raw cough. My voice has turned hoarse from the cough and the whole face is flushed red from fever. On top of that, I am not getting enough sleep nor rest due to all those infuriating assignments and the looming tests and exams up ahead.

I can't afford the time nor do I want to see the doctor. A waste of time, a waste of money. So for the time being, I'm on self-medication. I hope my voice can still hold out for one more day and my body, mind and soul can hold out for another 5 days. I've got a presentation tomorrow. I need my voice and my head - I need to be focused and deliver that extra OOMPH! factor in my presentation tomorrow.

So since, I'm so busy and am falling apart soon...

I think I'm better off dead.

But I'll be back again by next Wednesday, dead or alive.

*falls back into my rubies-encrusted, opal-studded and titanium made coffin*

Like a candle,
standing solely against the strong Wind,
I wonder,
when the bright lively flame,
of this Candle,
will be snuffed out?

WildChild @ 9:33 pm | comment link here

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+ Name: Stephanie Dara
+ Age: Forever 21
+ Horoscope: Libra
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desires for 2007

+ a good man to settle down with
+ a GPA score of higher than 4.1
+ a ton of good crime fiction books
+ a few more pounds to be shed
+ to look and feel good about myself
*****Wishlist*****

to be done soon

+ lose more weight
+ ~~get a new pair of spectacles~~
+ shop for new shoes
+ a pedicure & manicure session
+ an eyebrow trimming session
+ ~~a hair makeover~~
+ ~~shop for CNY clothes~~
+ shop for bra and panties

movies watchlist 2007

+ ~~Curse of The Golden Flower~~
+ ~~Pan's Labyrinth~~
+ One Last Dance
+ Zodiac
+ Perfume: The Story of a Murderer
+ Hannibal Rising
+ The Number 23
+ Spider-Man 3
+ 28 Weeks Later
+ Ocean's Thirteen
+ Nancy Drew: The Mystery in
Hollywood Hills
+ ~~Harry Potter & The Order of Phoenix~~

my babes

[*] Charlette
[*] Dee
[*] Denise
[*] Gladys
[*] Imms
[*] Jo
[*] Lil Sis
[*] Linyan
[*] Lynn
[*] Munster
[*] Rozie

my hunks

[*] Ahxing
[*] Amos
[*] Brudda
[*] Dan
[*] Darthsid
[*] DK
[*] Dude
[*] Hao
[*] John