This feisty lil Bitch has horns!

Sunday, February 26, 2006

I don't know where to start. Neither do I know how to address this issue.

I don't feel that I should apologise. Because it was never my fault to start with.

Is it a curse or a gift? I have yet to come to a conclusion.

I am a woman. Yet I do not feel/act/speak/think like one most of the time. Maybe it is due to the environment I am in, plus all the rough patches I've been forced to go through. I wasn't given many chances to be a woman.

Circumstances depicts that I should be a man encased in a woman's skin in order to survive. Lethal combination, no? The strong mentality of a man and the physical lure of a woman is more than anyone can take. Needless to say, I view myself as a freak.

Yet, some people find this Freak attractive. Or at least, they are curious and mesmerised by what the Freak writes on this blog and her online persona. They expects her to be a stunningly beautiful lady who is very 'happening', and have no problem with self-esteem.

I only have one thing to say - I'm not all that you expect me to be.

To describe myself in 5 words, I would say - I am very screwed up.

I have no wish to agree to something which I know for sure I would end up kicking myself in the ass over.

I am not Beauty, I am The Beast.

*****

Ask me what I want in a relationship now, and I have not the slightest idea. I'd always thought I have at least an inkling what my Significant Other would be like. But now, even that has seemed to vaporise. Haha... I'm hopeless.

I've lost the ability to love another, much less sustain a relationship.

Inner conflicts.

Parasites living in your mind.

WildChild @ 11:38 pm | comment link here

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+ Name: Stephanie Dara
+ Age: Forever 21
+ Horoscope: Libra
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desires for 2007

+ a good man to settle down with
+ a GPA score of higher than 4.1
+ a ton of good crime fiction books
+ a few more pounds to be shed
+ to look and feel good about myself
*****Wishlist*****

to be done soon

+ lose more weight
+ ~~get a new pair of spectacles~~
+ shop for new shoes
+ a pedicure & manicure session
+ an eyebrow trimming session
+ ~~a hair makeover~~
+ ~~shop for CNY clothes~~
+ shop for bra and panties

movies watchlist 2007

+ ~~Curse of The Golden Flower~~
+ ~~Pan's Labyrinth~~
+ One Last Dance
+ Zodiac
+ Perfume: The Story of a Murderer
+ Hannibal Rising
+ The Number 23
+ Spider-Man 3
+ 28 Weeks Later
+ Ocean's Thirteen
+ Nancy Drew: The Mystery in
Hollywood Hills
+ ~~Harry Potter & The Order of Phoenix~~

my babes

[*] Charlette
[*] Dee
[*] Denise
[*] Gladys
[*] Imms
[*] Jo
[*] Lil Sis
[*] Linyan
[*] Lynn
[*] Munster
[*] Rozie

my hunks

[*] Ahxing
[*] Amos
[*] Brudda
[*] Dan
[*] Darthsid
[*] DK
[*] Dude
[*] Hao
[*] John